Old Writings

I wrote this about 2 1/2 years ago, and I just found it and re-read it and thought I'd post it...I really like it..please give me your feedback I would love to hear your thoughts!

"So one thing that I have really been thinking about lately is couples. I look at a lot of my friends, past and present, strangers, and just people in general, and it seems like almost everybody has somebody right now. Superficially, that sounds like a great utopian concept: Everybody is loved, it is a bright, sunny season, and happiness is all over. But that's exactly what that perspective is: superficial. Under the surface there are much more less appealing perspectives.

First of all, what is it that is driving people to commit to these incredible relationships? Well it's not just love. One thing I've noticed is desperation. Individuals are so hell-bent on taking away their individuality, on labeling themselves as coupled. They will foresake what they like, are interested in, and most importantly, what they believe in just so that others will know that they are coupled. Relationships have become this rose, and happiness are its petals, and everytime a petal falls off, happiness dies for that person. People are so desperate to have a dozen roses in their garden, yet life is built off more than just those roses. It's built off more than just flowers. Life is this huge supermarket, where there is an endless variety of sections, yet everyone seems to focus on the rose department. Whatever happened to the clean up on aisle nine?

Another thing I've noticed which blindly drives people to one another is lonliness. It seems like lonliness is everywhere. A little girl swinging slowly on the playground with her head towards the ground, an old lady sipping a latte and watching the day pass at a coffee shop, a less than popular teenager sitting in his room on a Friday night, because no one has the bravery to call him and see how he's doing. These may all just be lonely people. But what about the people who are so afraid of being lonely that this urge drives them to shack up with anyone who gets beyond "hello" with them? So many people, especially young ones, fear spending their life unloved that they go for the next best thing, the less than best thing, or simply, anything. And that's unfortunate. You can feign a smile, you can feign an "I love you", hell, you can even feign an entire relationship, but you can't feign what your heart says is true. All in all, which is better? To be independant, single, and "lonely", or lie to yourself about what makes you happy for the rest of your life?

And what about the poor souls who have a combination of both? Lonliness and desperation. Are those the ones that turn to one night stands, drugs, and meaningless relationships to pass the time, and feign their happiness? Or are their a strong handful in that group that are able to stand their ground, hold out, and wait for that one person who truely, meaningfuly, honestly makes them happy and loves them unconditionally? Are you that person? Am I?"