The night. It's always the most painful time for me. It's when the world goes silent, everyone tunes out. Yet I continue on, my brain rattles inside my sinking head. When sleep finally arrives, it's the least painful part of my day...for I can dream. Dream of a time when I was free of this virus, free of the pain. I dream of being happy again. I dream of freedom from this prison of guilt that I inhabit. I dream that I can stop time, if only for a moment, so that I can longer enjoy this nightly reprieve.
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Love the dino blanket :)
ReplyDeleteNight time is a hard time for me too, everyone else is asleep and I start to freak myself out with thoughts that never come up in the day time.
ReplyDeleteWhen I get my new phone, we should text when one or the other is having a rough time.
Love you.
you have to start telling yourself its going to be OK NICK. thats something you've taught me... when you're sleeping and when you're awake just know that TOMORROW IS GOING TO BE ANOTHER BEAUTIFUL DAY... and its one worth waking up from...
ReplyDeleteyou're LIVING WITH.... NOT DYING FROM... REMEMBER THAT.....
thats something else that you told me.. and im NEVER going to FORGET...