Doctor's Visit and More

So it is been 4 weeks since my diagnosis and I finally had some real leadway in the beginning of my treatment. I went in and got my blood drawn (5 freaking vials of it), got chest x-rays, took a TB test, and a full STD test. I also was approved for ADAP which is AIDS Drug Assistance Program, which covers a variety of things for me. Overall, it was quite an experience.

I was very nervous to go in there today. I didn't know what to expect, but I knew it would be nothing less than interesting. I'm never one to fear needles or blood, but they took quite a bit of it so that kind of worried me. But they have several tests to run, and it takes a lot of expensive work to figure out what my viral load and T-Cell count. I'm hoping for the best, so please keep your fingers crossed. It will be two weeks until I get concrete counts back, but I will feel much more reassured as soon as I get the results back. Either that or I will be devestated. I'm hoping for a T-Cell count of at least 400. Which is lower than a normal, healthy adult, but still not too bad. Anything below, 350 will come as a shock as to me. It's scary to think that a few months ago I had only seen the phrases "T-Cell count" and "Viral Load" just a few times. Now they are common day words for me that I think and speak about on a daily basis.

BREAKING NEWS: I have finally formed my donations page for the AIDS walk. It is a very important cause that I will be participating in me, and if you are behind me in this I really need you to donate whatever you can. Anything over $5 dollars makes me eterenally grateful to you! My group goal is 10,000 big ones. I know I can do it with the help of everybody. That is why it is important for you to SPREAD THE WORD. If you would like to join my page you can do it on the website. It costs $25 dollars to join my team, but it all goes to the Long Beach AIDS walk collection. None if it is used for the website sponsering my page. If you don't want to commit that much, that fine, but please give the link to people. Tell them "I have a really good friend Nick. He's a 21 year old motivated college student who unfortunately found out he is HIV+. He is raising money for the AIDS walk in Long Beach, and it would be great if you could help it." We need to virally network. A goes to B and C, B goes to D, E, F, while C goes to H, I, J, and K. It's simple like that. With the economy the way it is, it is important to get as many sponsers as possible, because people will not be donating as much money this year. At last, the website is http://www.active.com/donate/aidswalklb09/NMorgan204

It would mean so much to me if you would do it. It was so hard to hear those words "Nick, I'm so sorry, but you showed up peliminary positive," but it has shaped me in so many ways. While I have battled the anxiety, anxiousness, fear, and depression that comes with finding out you are Young and Positive, I have also felt inspired, motivated, and driven. I have this fire burning inside of me right now. I want that fire to burn in all of you, just hopefully not the same way it started in me. Everyday I feel a different emotion. Today was a rather good day. Although the labwork was intimidating, I got a lot done and I feel accomplished.

I also have some more info on the speaking engagement in which I will be a panel member at. It is a HIV/AIDS Awareness panel mainly geared towards the Latin community, but everyone is welcome to come as it is a fight we all fight together. Women, men, gay, straight, bi, latin, black, white, blue, whatever. Even cat's have a from of "kitty aids". So bring your cat. Actually, don't. Haha. It will be Wednesday March 25th, 2009 from 5-7 PM at the University Student Union Room 205. If you work with me, please take it off work and come see me speak and a learn something or two. I'm going to be nervous, definitely, so some support from my fellow Chiliheads would be fabulous.

I'm going to finish it up for the night. Thank you for reading!!!!! I love all ya guys. Give me some feedback please! And most importantly: http://www.active.com/donate/aidswalklb09/NMorgan204